YUMINNNN

hey everyone.no ones tagging much.but anyways nvm.
im here for the update, not really for the tags.. right?
lol anyhows d&d camp started.. rather okay? but still kinda tired every night.
but hey, what to do..
gotta do things the hard way right now. ya?




the world is so full of problems, (and again) the wants and the needs and the greed and the unhappiness and the happiness, the laughs and the cries, the smiles and the frowns, the change in the many people around us.
and again the question, why?
wait.

no reason? or is it that the reason can never be defined? well yes i supposed.
my seniors left the school, the cca itself as well as us.. and theyve changed, why? have they been manipulated once theyve stepped outta the school after their major Os? or have they always been like that, pretending not to be the way they really are not?
i want to make sense, i want to make a change in the world. in this damn fucked up world. kinda ambitious i admit. but again, can i? do i have what it takes to do that? well i guess i have what it takes to just WANT to do that, but to really do it? hah..
i guess im feeling moody yet again? and this happens every month?
sometimes i just wanna cry it all out. cry for the hurt ive felt, just by some lil moves youve made, or somethings i think you should do that you didnt.
but can crying help? guess it helps in with the emotional psychology. but does it help on the whole? i think not.
the strong urge to want to change how things are ran in the world. if only im god, (if there is a god) i think making this world a nothing is so much better.
not feeling suicidal or anything people. just.. thoughtful?
yes.
and people, history doesnt REPEAT itself. history doesnt repeat at all. its just something rather similar that has happened, aye?
for eg in my depths of hurt from special ones, things happened again, the ALMOST exact some thing, right? but hey there are differences.. like the difference in people, and the different stuff they do to hurt [when perhaps it aint intentional but blame it on my sensitivity? lol] so its proven (or at least i prove it) that history DOES NOT repeat itself.
nothing repeats actually. only (what?) songs? LOL -.-


as for words like MORE MONEY, MORE FREEDOM, MORE THIS, MORE THAT..
well since i aint god or any almighty, i cant do anything to the wants ^..
so i guess.. lets just make do with this alright people?
and i gotta stop complaining.


wait! im not.

posted by yumin :D @ 8:20 PM